The last few days of Opti before surgery

Hard to believe that my surgery is in just 3 days 6 hours 5 minutes 13 seconds. WOW WOW WOW.  I don`t know what else to say! This new life is about to begin.  I can`t help but feel like I should feel more scared.  I guess the fact that I`m not means I`m confident in my decision.  I have however been spending alot of time with my kids.  If anything bad should happen to me I what them to know how very much I love them and how proud I am to be their MOM!! They are one of the main reasons I have chosen to have this surgery. I want to be able to play with them and be active with them. I no longer want to be the mom that sits and watches. I also want to be health and be apart of their lives as they grow up and start families of their own.  Their are other reasons too ... of course I want to be healthy, but I also want to fit in regular sized clothes and go shopping in regular stores! There is so much fashion that I would love to wear. Dresses, high boots, skinny jeans, the possibities are endless.  I know deep down there is a fear that something bad could happen, but I`m not letting it take hold. I want everything about this to be a positive experience. But yet I suppose I should not be nieve and say that can`t happen to me because I do understand the risks.

I have a a few ppl who wanted to know what this surgery consists off. There is a really cute cartoon of the surgery that I found online and showed my boys. Check out the link if you are interested http://www.surgerysquad.com/surgeries/rny-gastric-bypass-surgery/.

When it comes to the Optifast ... I have been averaging 2 to 3 shakes a day.  I`m not finding it particularly hard anymore I think I have gotten used to the taste.  The last 2 days I have been drinking the Vanilla with Raspberry Crystal Light for a bit of a change and I have been enjoying them.

Tonight I spent some time with my boys and tried to relax.  I gave myself a pedicure for the first time in forever. It was great to do something for me. I don`t do that often enough. But all that is going to change in 2013. I need to be happier and if I`m happier it will be better for my family all around!!

The last few days of kinda been a blur. I had 2 days where I was just sick to death of the opti and only drank 2 each day and that was hard to do. I was talking to Brooke my wls partner in crime!! (Here surgery is the day after mine) she set me straight on how important drinking them and getting the protein in is. So my last day I was a good little girl and chocked down 3 shakes!!! I was so happy to take that last sip and be done with it!!

I don't have an official weight loss total for opti as I had to weigh myself on the work scale on Saturday morning. At that time my total was 19lbs. 19lbs in 12 days. All I can say is Wow wow wow!!! There is already a noticeable difference as seen in the pic I'm posting! Also see me not so enjoying my LAST OPTIFAST!!!!!